Diary Room Session- Week Eight

[Brittany]

Zach leaving the house was bittersweet. Yes, I wanted him gone after carefully thinking what I thought was best. But it's the reason why he was being evicted that made me sad. I voted Zach out not because Sofia wanted him out so much. I voted Zach out because I just couldn't trust him anymore. Me trying to trust him now is like him trying to trust me when we were in that first alliance, he never did trust me.

Zach offered me to keep me safe to the very end and have Mike and I go to final two. Obviously I declined. If I look stupid in front of house calls and jury for turning down this offer then fine. I rather earn the place I get in this game for doing what I want to do rather than earning a higher place because someone carried me there. I just couldn't give Zach that second chance for my trust. I am sad that he's gone, I loved our general chats and he was never boring to talk too. It just kind of hurts that the person you trust most never really trusted you back. Neda is probably in "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" mode but I don't really care. I don't know what this week will bring. If I get HoH I will put up Neda and Sam on the block. If I get this, then more details will come soon, if not oh well. 

[Brittany]

I legit knew what this comp was gonna be about from Rise and Fall 6. I made a whole study plan just for this comp. I wrote down every eviction, HoH, Veto, BotB, Mean Girls and Wil's song! the only thing that got me off guard was the nom ceremony. I've been making this study plan since JoJo's eviction. No joke. So why the hell did I take 20+ minutes? Because APPARENTLY I SUCK AT COUNTING!!!! I try and be one step ahead and I get knocked down six steps back. I think my time is very beatable. I can only hope I did good but we will see. Lol @ me at the beginning of the season saying that I will "dominate" everything as the weeks progress. 

[Brittany]

OH SPLENDID!!!
How I keep avoiding the block is beyond me!!! They are still attacking each other over Brian's blindside/Zach's eviction! Now what would be a better move? Getting rid of Neda or getting rid of Sofia? Now this was what I was going to do if I had won HoH.

I was going to nominate Sam and Neda. If veto had been used then Sofia would of gone up. But at that point I would want Sofia to be evicted instead of Sam or Neda. Sofia next to Zach is another comp threat and if i want a better chance at winning a comp then Sofia will have to go. I know I'm on her good side but she has to understand I want her out because it's what I think is good for my game. I'm going to have a talk with Sam and see what he wants from this week.

[Brittany]

I forgot to bring this up.

Neda and I finally talked last night. I just wanted to have us get everything on the table and just discuss. She wanted to know if Luke was in that first alliance of the season. I'm not sure why she asked because Zach didn't care for Luke and his social game at all. I told her he wasn't in it. She also asked if I honestly didn't know anything about the second alliance. She told me if Sam or Zach ever mentioned anything about the second alliance to me and I said no, that I was in the dark this whole time up too a few hours before Brian's eviction when in reality I knew about it after Luke was evicted. She said the only bitter blood she has was with Sam and Sofia. She isn't upset with me for changing the vote last minute to make it a tie with Mike and Brian. There's still that rumor that she thinks I'm a social threat and jury threat that kept getting told to me the week Zach was getting evicted, but I still have just a little time to figure out how I'm going to deal with that. I'm just glad got to talk to Neda for a bit and see more or less where she stands.

[Brittany]

Neda is campaigning to me right now and saying she thinks Sofia and Mike are working together. Sofia wants Mike to go up as replacement. Mike says he thinks Neda and Sofia are together. Neda wants to work with Sam and I. Sam wants Neda gone. NONE OF THIS SHIT MAKES SENSE!!!

I really hope Mike is being honest right now and is truly wanting to work with me. But theres this really bad feeling that I'm having, that nobody is planning on keeping me to final two maybe not even final three. 

I need to bring up to Neda about the rumors that she wanted me out a couple weeks ago and see what she has to say about that. I feel like I should stick with Mike and have a talk with him tonight. It really sucks that after veto is posted that everyone is all up your AIM and sending you long messages of either truth or bullshit. Right now I'm just going to think about it and see what my mind comes up with. 

Also, I really liked that comp. Even though I got last place, it was fun to find everything and make our own love songs and pictures. I truly thought I did good but LOL @ my comp stats. I did everything right but my time just sucks. 

[Kat]

I loved the song

[Brittany]

Oct 21, 2014 18:04:21 GMT -5 Kat said:

I loved the song

Yay!! I thought the instrumentals went perfect with the lyrics! lol