Sofia's Sanatorium

[Sofia Valentine]

We've dove into the game and the first HOH is crowned. Sam winning the power is compelling and I'm curious to know what he'll do with his nominations. I had a short conversation with him the other day when he came on for a few moments before he swiftly exited. He seemed likable enough. It was cordial but nothing to explore further. I do want to have a more thorough conversation with him.

My longest conversations were with Brian and Zach. Brian was fine and our discussion ebbed and flowed like a conversation should. I was more open with Zach about how many of the houseguests were unable to carry a conversation. I found myself picking others up and carrying them throughout the chat and I didn't sign up to do that. You can hold your end of the conversation up or you can sign off and not socialize at all. Some people left bad impressions on me.

I think it is ineffective to come online for a momentary minute just to say one thing and leave. It reeks of desperation. Wil came on and said, "just want to say hello before my hair appointment" and disappeared immediately after. Okay? Sarah can't hold a conversation worth shit and it died 2 minutes in: "mmm, true" and "haha yeah!" being played on repeat isn't how you engage a conversation babydoll.

Everyone else is in the in-between and I don't have an opinion on them. The only people left for me to meet and mingle with are JoJo and Mike.

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Maybe I shouldn't get too ahead of myself when it comes to Brian. He was a different person today. Yesterday he was one of the players I had the best conversation with and today? The fucking worst. I will never come to understand why people come online full knowing they don't want to talk or socialize. Do everyone a favor and stay offline. Zach and I were talking about him and I can tell Zach would throw him out in traffic if given half a chance. I like the friction forming between people.

JoJo remains to be the only person yet to speak to me and vice versa. Sam came on and assured me I was safe and had nothing to worry about. I think he is putting up JoJo for not being able to talk with him and I think he is doing Wil as the other. Zach compared notes with me and the stories added up. JoJo can go and I don't care to talk to her if she's going to sit online for the past hour and not bother talking to me. If she goes up and stays up I will be locking my vote in for her early.

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I could grow accustomed to wearing the Power of Veto all season. I like having power. With it I can have an effect on what I want to see happen. But let's face it.. I'm not going to turn the house on it's head yet. I am going to keep the nominations the way they are and lock in my vote for JoJo to go. Eager.. yes. Jumping the gun.. maybe. Do I care.. not really no lol. I don't like JoJo and I don't think we will ever work together or be on the same page. It's a game and since I see her against me then it goes without saying that I would like to see her make an exit.

Neda shares these sentiments with me. We spent most of the day trashing JoJo's very existence. It was catty and we both acknowledged it but it passes the time and it allowed me to make a bond with Neda. Neda is now one of my favorite people in the house.

The vote is going to be scattered. Neda and I think anyone that keeps JoJo is preposterous or we're being left out of something that includes her. I don't see the allure of JoJo. JoJo is going around saying that Wil is a silent, but deadly player and I can't help but snicker. Wil? WIL? Wil is silent, but deadly? That's your campaign strategy? It's reaching with his bad social game and shittastic score in Veto. I think JoJo is a better player than Wil and I want to take the chance to behead her before she gains momentum and a following.

Brian is at the home plate batting for JoJo and it's off-putting. You bring up a reason voting JoJo out could be smart and he counters it with an opinion that he believes is the end all be all. There is no talking to Brian unless you agree with what he is saying. We ended up stopping the conversation because we couldn't find common ground. Flips hair, don't care.

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Neda winning this round is almost parallel to me winning. She has the same ideas of what she wants to happen. The players she put up are two that I would have done. I could have done Mike over Gina for the fact that Gina and I have better chats when we do talk however. I find that quality over quantity is the way to look at conversations. The best conversationalists are Neda, Zach and Sam in my opinion. Nobody holds a conversation like these three and that's why I wanted to make a deal with them as a group or as individuals.

I made no deals in the first week and that made me cautious that people could have been making deals and I was falling behind. I didn't like that I was doing it this round with Neda in power but I felt it needed to be done. Now or never.

After Neda won I approached her and pitched the idea of a group alliance. I told her what I felt in that she was one of my favorite people. We are able to be open and honest about how boring all these other people are and that is something to lock in and not let get away. I feel the same way with Zach. Neda agreed that a group would be a good idea.. but a small group. I threw Zach's name to her because we had talked about him before and how we liked his company.

To make things short, everything fell into place and we ended up coming together to make a small group. Zach mentioned liking Sam to me too but we agreed that keeping it at three was good for now and we could keep Sam close to us. To make an alliance legit.. you need a name. I gave a list of group names and the one that they liked the best was "The Third Degree". I think it's a decent alliance name. People who get voted out by us get third degree burns! We agreed on "The Bitchy Bunch" for our live feed name because all we do is speak the truth about everyone, mean or not.

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Let me state one of my colossal peeves. I hate when anyone has the audacity to come up to me and exclaim "I haven't seen you! Where have you been?" when it comes to a location where I frequent and the person saying it is the one that hasn't been around. I seethe.

Luke messaged me and told me how he never sees me online but would like to get to know me. He needs to shut up. I have messaged him three or four times and every time I have messaged him he's never responded because he's either been busy or on his fucking phone. I see him online when I log in, but I'm done sending him an IM when every attempt I've made in the past has been left ignored. I told him this in my response. Second.. he doesn't want to get to know me. He wants my vote and guess what? He's not getting it. Fuck him.

Neda wants Gina out and I lied to her face and said I'd evict her. I'm not evicting Gina. I can place a hinky vote and the blame can fall on somebody else. But there is no way I will vote to save Luke. Not for anyone. He and Mike are two people I always see online and never talk to, and if I win Head of Household both of their asses are getting put up.

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5 hours of my life that I’ll never get back.

I’m happy, sad and mad all at the same time with results. I’m happy that Zach won.. sad that I didn’t win.. and mad that Brian beat me by 15 minutes. Ass cactus. I fell into the middle of the pack and you’d think that makes me a target for doing well in an endurance - but no. The good news is that Zach is part of "The Third Degree" with Neda and I and I know he’ll keep me safe. Mike on the other hand.. who knows?

I spoke to Mike before the challenge and said how great it would be if we won because nobody in their right mind would expect us to. He brought that conversation up to me earlier and said it was driving motivation for him to win. That’s a good sign.

The piece that worries me is that he was telling Neda she was safe and he went and told Sam he was safe.. and in our box, he never said that. I might of shot myself in the foot by telling him to put up people like Brittany and Brian, who are players I don’t have anything with yet are always on and could be part of something large because of how much they are present to make and take deals. Nothing against Brittany. Everything against Brian.

We talked about being blamed for the Gina vote. Everyone kept saying it was Mike or I that kept Gina. It was me! But I’m lying through my teeth like a little demon and assuring people that I could never ever do such a thing. I don’t know if people buy what I'm selling or not but nobody should care. There are bigger things to worry about.

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Everything played out the way I wanted it to. I'm happy Zach stayed Head of Household because I knew I wasn't going to go up as a replacement. Mike is another story. I dodged a bullet by sweet talking him into not putting me up in the first place and instead going for bigger targets that are around more often and could have deals that exclude him. He ate it up because he's paranoid.

This week felt especially long since I didn't compete in any competitions. I got to sit and watch people fight for their lives. I've noticed that when I sign in, there are a people that don't bother messaging me or don't feel a need to. Specifically Sarah. The bitch comes online and sits there and I get word that she's talking to others because they're telling me things she's said or things she wants to see happen (such as votes or who she's targeting).

But it don't bother me none! I don't like Sarah. It only makes me more comfortable in sitting her child-bearing ass on the block if I win Head of Household because I think she would stick me up next to Mike. Don't these people know about keeping your friends close but your enemies closer?

The confrontations last night were entertaining. Wil taking on Zach and Neda. Zach wants Wil out but I'm not going to do that. Sorry Z! I told him I would evict Wil and I told Neda too so hopefully they believe me and think it was someone else that voted for Wil to stay. I like casting minority votes but I also love evicting Luke who's probably passed out on the floor after drinking from a keg. Frat boys. Fun in real life.. useless in Big Brother.

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I wanted to post nominations last night but after results the boards weren't visible for me so I had to wait until now. These bitches should have been sweating it during the wait so it works. I want to go through my thought processes after I won and want to give a fair warning before I do. I am a very bad winner if it's not evident. I like to rub my wins in people's faces. I let the power get to my head and I can act like a tyrant. It might be great for entertainment but it's fatal for my game. But I don't care. I'm here to have fun and stay true to me.. being a witch with a capital B.

The people on my hit list are Brian, Brittany, Luke and Sarah. Brian is someone I loathe and would push in front of a bus. I would knock him off a 22 ft. ladder. I would lock him in a car with a hive of bees. Maybe in those dire situations he would deliver some personality that would make him at least somewhat likeable.

Brittany is a threat. I like our conversations but I am tired of how many people tell me they like her. This girl is always fucking online. Always. I'm also confident that she's one of people that always points out that I'm not online to others. I have a life. I come on when I can. I'm still here aren't I? Never nominated? Some people must like me and find me to be active enough to keep me around. If she tried talking to me more and let me in then maybe something could come from it.

Luke is someone I think is a waste of carbon. He is essentially in the game because he is the ultimate pawn. Nobody cares about him. They only care to keep him around to throw up against their target and to possibly drag to the end for an easy win. I told Luke yesterday that I don't want to put him up because I'm tired of the pawn business. I said this with the expectation of him running and telling people. If he does do that I think they’ll shit themselves more knowing that he isn't going up.

Sarah is a bigger threat to me than Brittany. I think out of everyone I have spoken to her the least but she's still active in the game and I think has deals with Brian, Brittany and Luke. All my other targets. I liked when Mike put her up on the block last week and I kind of want to put her up again just to see her squirm. She isn't bad at competitions and I think if she had won this week then Mike would be up next to me and that's something I don't want to see happen. I have been on with Sarah many times and we never message the other. I think that speaks volumes.

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BRIAN: so, I'm not going to pretend to be happy with what went down, but if that's how you feel, then I 'get it'. Even though, that's the first I heard of it

SOFIA: First heard of what?

SOFIA: Can you sit here and tell me that if you won I wouldn't have gone up on the block?

SOFIA: Because it'd smell of bullshit if you did

BRIAN: I can tell you if I won HOH my noms could've gone a bunch of different ways since they weren't set in stone, yeah.

SOFIA: Wow what a way with words..

SOFIA: Excellent job pussy footing around the question

Get the fuck out of here.

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I clean sweeped! Neda, Zach and I are the only ones to do it and we're The Third Degree and ¾ of The United Nations. That makes us a big deal. I think I have a larger target on my back because I have a total of 3 wins and they only have 2 but I can see that changing soon. It worries me but I also like it. I enjoy playing and if I'm going to play then I'm going to give every bit I can and not hold back. I'd rather play hard than not play at all. Here's to looking at you Luke.

Me winning means that my nominations were staying the way they were made. I don't have a bond with Brian or Sarah and them being around isn't good for my game. But now it comes to deciding which is worse for my game. Brian annoys the fuck out of me. I've never felt such an urge to kick someone where it counts. Sarah on the other hand has strong connections. Not many people like Brian lol. Zach, Neda, Mike and Sam are people that said they don't like him very much. That makes Sarah stronger socially. She is also stronger physically.

I want Sarah to go. I told Z last night to please evict her because she has more of a chance in beating us in competitions than Brian and his pitiful 1/7 Head of Household score. I should have the votes. I only need 3 and I will cast the tiebreaker to send Sarah to Jury. I am counting on Zach, Mike and Sam as confirmed votes. Sam mentioned that he hadn't talked to Sarah in a while and Mike nominated her last week. I need to talk to Neda but if she doesn't vote her out, I still have my 3 votes.

Brian tried hard to get me to use the Veto on him last night too lol. He thought he had a chance. He wasted his time. Did he not read my ceremony? Do I need to highlight it, do it in caps and bold it for him next time?

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I need to talk about something..

I feel alone and I shouldn't be when it comes to this..

Zach and Sam had a group alliance from the beginning that I was left out of and that Neda was excluded from too. Tell me why Zach and Sam tell us about it and Neda is all rainbows and sunshine with it. What!?! I get Zach and Sam wanting to work with Neda and I but this is BIG. This is a big secret and it has set them up fucking nice. I'm supposed to be okay that they have allies on the other side of the house.. making them even safer than me?

The only thing that is keeping me from breaking the fake ass smile on my face is that Zach is putting up Brian. That proves that he is willing to come to Neda and I and not play both ends of the field. But fuck.. I don't think this should be kicked aside and ignored. If nothing is done about this soon then we are giving these guys a ride to the end.

Zach and Sam are allied with everyone then except Luke and Mike and Luke is the target this week. I'm not okay with this. You could say Brian will be bitter with Zach but the turd won't be able to win anything to do anything about it. He couldn't win his way out of a cardboard box. Zach is a huge ass threat to me now but I'm going to smile and sharpen a blade behind my back before it's time to strike.

I am mad at Neda for being so weak. How can she be okay with this and not question it. Unless she's lying and doing what I'm doing too. Or she could have a deal with Sam or Zach and that's keeping her questioning what's happening. It would be Zach because Sam is not on late when she is. Something is going on and it is not sitting well with me. I'm going to get to the bottom of it if it's the last thing I do.

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I'm going to tell Brittany everything I think.. but I'm going to wait until this round comes nearer to the end. When she knows that her group alliance was revealed and that she can't trust Zach and Sam then she'll be my ally and I hope she trusts me more than those guys. I need to secure some allies on the side and I think Brittany and Mike could be good ones for me to get with.

I wish I could get Neda on board but something is fucking wrong with that chick. She is so up the boys' asses that if I said anything then she'd tell them and I would be done for.

I'm not going to sit around and play bitch to anyone. Zach and Sam are great guys but how can I let this go? They have the upper hand socially and Brittany and Brian don't even know they're being played. I would rather play hard and go home trying to increase my chances to win than do nothing at all.

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Well that fucking blows.

Brittany and my master plan will have to wait.

While we undergo Sam's HOH we are going to smile to everyone's face and plot behind their backs. Brittany asked me if we win HOH are we going to let it all out in our ceremonies. I said hell to the fuck yes. Our reasons are justified and I don't have a problem telling the house what has been happening and why Neda and Zach are nominated. One of them needs to be kicked out on their ass.

It should be Sam and Zach but Sam I think is weaker than Neda in competitions and I believe Neda and Zach have a little something something cooking in the kitchen betwixt them. That would explain Neda's insatiable need to support Zach and Sam and be up their ass all the time right? Brittany and I don't need Neda winning and saving Zach too since everyone plays in Veto at Final 6.

Mike is shooting himself in the foot as I write this. Sam told everyone Mike's business and Mike is leaving if he stays nominated. I don't want Mike to go but I can't go against the grain in the event Brittany or I don't win next week. This needs to be done carefully.. I don't want to fuck it up! If we can't win next week I think Brittany and Brian will be up and there is a chance I would be the replacement. I haven't been talking to Neda and Zach as much as before.

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SAM: why were you worried i'd put you or neds up? no way would i do that love

SOFIA: What are you talking about?

SAM: i heard you were worried i would nominate you as a pawn if i had to name a replacement

SAM: i wouldn't put you in that position unless you felt comfortable doing it. i'm all for the alliance and wouldn't risk anyone if it wasn't necessary

SOFIA: Me too! That's good to hear Sam, thank you doll

SOFIA: Who said that though?

SAM: zach mentioned it to me when we were talking about the pawn scenario if brian or mike won because they looked like they could have had it

SOFIA: Oh okay. Yeah it was only a passing concern.

Something I discuss with Neda is relayed to Zach. Oh Neda. Unlodge yourself from Zach's ass you codependent twat. This was me testing the waters with Neda to see if she felt nervous about the guys' intentions. Instead of keeping it to herself she goes to Zach and in a way made me look bad questioning Sam. Fuck her! If this doesn't confirm Neda and Zach together then what does.

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MIKE: I want to talk to you, please.

SOFIA: What's wrong?

MIKE: Are you voting to keep me or are you voting to evict me? I've heard that I'm probably going home. And I want to hash it out if there is something wrong between the two of us.

SOFIA: There is nothing wrong between the two of us? I'm confused?

MIKE: Okay good. Are you keeping me then?

SOFIA: Don't parade it around but yes

SOFIA: Who is telling you you're going home?

MIKE: Zach and Neda are both telling me that at this point I'm probably going home. And that I need 3 votes to stay because a tie won't help me. Neda randomly came to me and says she would prefer I stay because anyone who is going up against Brian is going home and Brian will continue to be used as a pawn.

SOFIA: Trust me when I say that's NOT the case. I hate when people pretend to care and don't

SOFIA: It's fake and jury pandering

MIKE: So is she just fishing or what?

SOFIA: Between you and me.. she knows you want her out

SOFIA: This is them trying to ease you out so you're not bitter

SOFIA: I'm kind of tired of the bullshit

MIKE: *sigh*

SOFIA: I'm keeping you. That's genuine. I vote how I want always

MIKE: Should I try and get Brittany to keep me and then you, Neda, Brittany can keep me?

SOFIA: Neda won't keep you as far as I know but try Brittany and PM Sam. I will message Sam tomorrow too

SOFIA: Please don't share anything I said either

MIKE: No I won't

SOFIA: I will try and help you best I can but don't waste your time on Neda and Zach. They don't want you to stay

MIKE: No one has told me anything in this game or offered me anything lol. That's been the problem and has fueled paranoia in me.

SOFIA: Just trust me when I say that Zach is not one to be trusted and Neda is up his ass. There is a way to keep you but it might require talking to Sam tomorrow. Sam is clue less where he sits with Zach

MIKE: I am so worried that he is too far in Zachland.

MIKE: Zach said to me he has worked so hard on gaining Sam's trust and does not want to ruin that.

MIKE: That was his reasoning for not using the veto on me apparently.

SOFIA: I guess that is true technically but it's doused in sugar. Let me just say that this game has had two alliances and who was between both?

SOFIA: Zach and Sam

MIKE: And then I guess I was a floater

SOFIA: No lol. I don't want you to be the innocent that gets fucked over either. Brittany is worried because she doesn't know if she can trust you from what she heard but Brit is good people and she know's what's up

MIKE: Totally understandable

SOFIA: Just tred softly right now and I will talk to Brittany and Sam tomorrow. Brittany's in class right now and won't be out for another 3 hours lol

MIKE: Okay. Well at least Neda's fakeness got us to talk and try and come up with a plan to help me.

I am reaching my limit with these fake ass bitches.