Neda's Diary

[Neda Kalantar]

Alright! Sorry for the delay! So I am officially back and better than ever! I am calling this my Lotus comeback! I will do better than my 8th place as Amanda, so if I get out before that with a cast 12 people! That would be depressing and I should just be gone. I definitely want to play opposite then I have before. I don’t want to make any waves early in the game. I don’t want to be anyone’s target. Most importantly I DON’T WANT TO BE SO GULLIBLE! That is my problem in these games. I am very gullible and so quick to believe anyone. I want to learn from my past mistakes and hopefully since I have made so many mistakes this will be an advantage. I most definitely want to play under the radar. I have never played under the radar in this series and I think it’s time. I think playing as Neda will help me and motivate me not to play over the top.
 
Going into this game I want people I can trust early on. That may be foolish to put your trust in someone’s hands so early. But I need people on my side fighting for hoh. This is why I will start off my cast opinions since I have met everyone.



– I am starting with Zach because I trust him the most. We hit it off right from the start and I don’t know if he was just kissing ass to me and I fell for it. We bonded over our character choices and I think we both picked the best people to play as. I can tell Zach is a character and he is very easy to talk to. You know me if someone is not easy to talk to then I have no time for you. I feel like we are in an alliance but we haven’t discussed it with each other. I have already let my guard down with him and I hope that doesn’t hurt me. I keep thinking okay remember when you let your guard down with Ed and Sam because you trusted them so much so early in the game and looked what happened. So I got to be careful with him.

– Sarah is someone I am working on to trust. I get the feeling that she genuinely likes me. I had some family drama when she was talking to me and I opened up to her. Part of it was because I needed to talk but I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t for game. I want her to see that I don’t just talk game with her, that I’m not afraid to talk personal with her. I think when you talk personal with people it brings you closer. I really like Sarah and I can see myself working with her. Not a fan of her chcaracter choice though, she mentioned she had Heather on her list. Like WTF! Why didn't you pick Heather!
  – I didn’t think I would like Sam after he won hoh. I met him after he won which made me nervous because that makes me look shady. Thankfully he liked me and enjoyed talking to me. He has a very different time zone than me and I joked that I would work around it just for him. It felt nice feeling safe with the first hoh. I already mentioned to Sam if I were to win hoh he will be safe. So I can see us working together in the future. Plus we talked about wanting Jojo out this round.

  – Sofia is hilarious! We are already talking shit to each other which is bad because I need to play it cool. We bonded over our love for Amber Heard! After she won veto, boy did we talk! We went on a Jojo bash and just made fun of the stupid things she said. I need to save this for when I mention Jojo! We just basically trust each other enough to share our opinions about the cast.

– Wil is someone I really liked day 1. So when he got nominated against Jojo, I knew where my vote was at. I see him more as an alley than Jojo would be. He sent me stuff Jojo told him because he says he can trust me. So that means if he wins hoh I’d be safe!
  – I really liked Gina day 1 but she seems to kind of fade. But she left a very good impression on me day 1. It’s funny we both live near each other and mentioned going to Universal Studios this Halloween. Ya never know we might see each other!

– Mike was the last person I met and I enjoyed my conversation with him. He seems sweet. I just need to talk to him more.
– I try and try with Brittany but our chats keep dying. We talk often probably more than the people above her. But I just find myself bored with her. She put me to sleep last night! Literally!

– I don’t think Luke likes me. I know he is playing the game sassy but I just got the vibe he didn’t like me. I was sassy back at him and he didn’t seem to like it.

  – Brian has very strong opinions and I found myself keeping my mouth shut talking to him. I don’t want to ever disagree with Brian! I am just going to shut up and nod my head. He just seems very stern and very serious. He is not someone I would like to see go far.
– Oh Jojo! As I mentioned in my video, I kind of see my Amanda self in her. I was right! Girl is loca! Ever since she got nominated she has over campaigned. She keeps talking and talking. I told her people keep distracting me from writing my diary room. What does she do? She starts rambling! If she does stay she would for sure be the hot mess of the season. I will gladly give her that crown!

As of right now the main people I would love to work with are Zach, Sarah, Sam and Sofia! Maybe Wil but I feel like he is an easy person to nominate. My targets are Jojo, Brian and maybe Luke but I need to talk to Luke again. I cannot judge him based on one chat. So far I think this is a successful first round for me, probably one of my best. I think I managed to stay likeable, easy to talk to and more important didn’t case any waves!

[Neda Kalantar]

Just noticed bottom row on the memory wall are people I want to work with!

[Kat]

Didn't pick Heather cuz Sarah was their first choice

And gg on surviving the first round!

[Neda Kalantar]

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[Neda Kalantar]

So I have just posted my nominations and I feel great about them. Moving forward in this game and thinking long term, it was my only choice. What bugs me is I feel like I may have had Gina on my side and now I might have ruined it. Between Gina and Luke, I'd like to see Luke leave. However, I would prefer them both to stay this week and backdoor Brian. Luke I ain't counting to win the veto. But I hope Gina can win this veto and take herself off. I really hope she doesn't hold this against me because she has to understand we only talked once!

For those who did not watch my video, I will mention the new alliance I have and my concerns. So after I won HOH Sofia felt behind in alliances and offered an alliance with me. I already liked her and I am for us working together. She mentions wanting more people but just a small group, which the day before Zach said almost the same thing. Then Sofia mentions Zach joining this alliance! You know at first I am like wow this is awesome, she brought up Zach’s name and I didn’t. That means I don’t have to work behind Zach’s back! But I raised suspicion. Were Sofia and Zach already official before me and Zach? Did they just both happen to like me and want to work with me together? I am no one’s third wheel and I will say that now!

As of right now, I will not depend on this alliance to get me to the end. I might not even depend on Zach to help me get to the end now. I told him straight up it’s me/you and her. Don’t get it twisted! I am however relying on this alliance to keep me safe and get me further in the game.

I am very skeptical about Brittany! I just can’t read this girl at all. I have talked to her countless times and the conversations don’t go anywhere when it comes to gameplay. I was hoping winning HOH she would be more vocal about that wasn’t the case. The frustrating thing is if I were to target her this week, it would be no good. I just have to hope I win another HOH and get her out. She did say I will be safe if she wins but I don’t have a good feeling about her at all.

I really hope winning HOH this early in the game will come to my benefit. Keeping Wil, Sarah, Sam, Brittany, and Mike safe should keep me safe if they were to win an HOH.

[Neda Kalantar]

Seriously.....

I get houseguest choice for veto?! Zach seemed like he wanted to play in this but I couldn't risk anyone suspecting us. Mike offered to play and said he wouldn't use it. If he does happen to use it, that's fine by me! Backdoor Brian! However, Brian is playing in this veto! Yikes!

[Neda Kalantar]

Well then. I just won the power of veto! It's an awesome feeling winning both HOH and POV in the same week. Having this in week 2 though, not so much. Obviously, now I look like a competition threat to these people. I can't believe how long they took doing the puzzle. I think Brittany threw that challenge. When I saw the challenge I knew I would do well in it just like the HOH competition. I debated when either or not I should not try my best. I didn't want a big target on my back winning this. Zach made a good point, its better for me to win than Gina or Luke winning. I cannot get anymore blood on my hands this early in the game.

After my nominations, Luke was my initial target. However, I hear Gina was truly surprised she got nominated and started to rant about it. I feel like Gina is much better in challenges than Luke is. Obviously whoever stays between them will nominate me when given the opportunity. It seems like Gina has a better shot to win HOH than Luke does. With that, I think I want her gone. I do think me and her had potential to work together but after I nominated her I don't see her moving past it. She holds grudges, I can already tell.

Ideally the whole house will evict whoever I want to. But I only need 4 votes to get someone evicted. I would be able to break the tie. As of right now I think Gina is the smartest choice to leave this week. She seems much more catty and stronger than Luke. It might change though, I don't know! All I know is since I hold all the power, the only person who has a right to nominate me is whoever stays!

[Neda Kalantar]

[Neda Kalantar]

Being HOH this week wasn’t as stressful as I thought it would. Mostly because it is still early in the game. It was a great opportunity to get some allies and alliances from this hoh. At the beginning of the week, I really wanted Brian out of this game. From how robotic he is to talk to and how passionate he was to keep JoJo last round. When I put Gina and Luke on the block, originally I wanted Gina to stay. However, seeing how she reacted to being nominated was a red flag. I’ve played with people like her before and it’s not pretty. I think she has proven herself to be more of a competitor than Luke has. She seems to hold more of a grudge than Luke would against me.

I made the biggest mistake any Hoh can make. I was so sure that I wanted Gina to stay. That I told her I wanted her to stay right after my nominations. That was before I found out she threw a temper tantrum. I’M ALLOWED TO CHANGE MY MIND! Luke has grown on me this week. He is so funny to tease and make fun of to his face. He has great humor and he doesn’t take himself too seriously. When I told him that I will campaign for him to stay, he seemed very thankful as he should. My only worry is that Gina will expose me as a liar and I will just deny deny deny. “Why would I promise that before veto?!” That is what I plan on saying if anyone brings it up to me.

Wil has mentioned to me that he trusts me and Gina the most. If word gets out to him that I want Gina out that could damage our relationship. I think it would be very petty on his part though. Since Wil is clearly on the outs. I am working really hard to use Wil in this game. I do see him being out soon unless he pulls out a win.

Going into this eviction and next hoh I am nervous. I don’t think they would lie and keep Gina. The only person who has any reason to nominate me is Luke. Ideally Zach wins the next hoh so it can be stress free. I had no choice but to win hoh and veto this week. If that put a target on my back then so be it. I do think this week my relationship with Zach has gotten stronger. Zach and I talked about Zeda week 1 but I didn’t want to act on it until my gut told me it’s the real deal. But that was because I was so head over heels that someone is playing as Zach. But I have gotten to know Zach more now so yes Zeda is a thing now! Way better than Jeda and Zankie! I think we have done a good job on not letting the houseguest get any whiff of us being together. The only one who could suspect is Sofia but we are working with her so it shouldn’t matter to her yet.

Once Gina is evicted, I fully expect her to murder me at Universal Studios!

[Neda Kalantar]

Just because I am bored!


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[Neda Kalantar]

Rocking the glasses this week like queen!

[Neda Kalantar]

SHIT WENT DOWN TONIGHT! As soon as I finished my video drama has happened in the house. Looking at Wil’s song post, I am like yes! Finally I am not the train wreck of the season!! Watching Wil and Zach go at it was hilarious! I was definitely on Team Zach during that argument. Anyways so this is where things get juicy!

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Wil Heuser (8:57:14 PM): Well, here's the thing..
Wil Heuser (8:57:17 PM): I think you and Zach are aligned
.Wil Heuser (8:57:30 PM): Because you would've said yes to keeping me if you had won the Veto.
Wil Heuser (8:57:35 PM): I know im going.
Wil Heuser (8:57:50 PM): There is no doubt about it, but I'm going to be real as hell.... and say what I think now.
Neda (8:57:59 PM): wait why would i risk my game for you though
Neda (8:58:05 PM): if i used the veto on you
Neda (8:58:10 PM): i would be in a worse spot than you
Neda (8:58:14 PM): its not my fault you didnt talk to people
Wil Heuser (8:58:19 PM): No you wouldnt.
Neda (8:58:20 PM): and got you nominated by him
Wil Heuser (8:58:30 PM): I chatted with him numerous times.
Wil Heuser (8:58:35 PM): He was brief with me.
Neda (8:58:49 PM): what does that have to do with me
Neda (8:59:27 PM): if i used the veto on you
Neda (8:59:31 PM): everyone would question me
Neda (8:59:33 PM): zach would be pissed
Neda (8:59:34 PM): at me
Neda (8:59:40 PM): id become the target for next week
Neda (8:59:44 PM): no doubt

Is he for real? Get this! So because I don’t want to put myself out there and hurt my game. That means I am working with the HOH? Wil makes no sense whatsoever! He put himself in the position he is in right now. The fact I even wanted him to win veto makes me feel so stupid. I have already vetoed a hohs target in this series and it ruined my game. No way I am doing that again! This is the season I learn from my past mistakes! I am not going to let Wil drag me down with him. Plus this bitch has been hinting to me that I am the Christine of the game! That there is a guy alliance and my hoh was what they wanted. Like what the fuck are you even talking about! This is not Big Brother 16 and do not insult me like that first of all.

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Wil Heuser (9:01:15 PM): OK

Wil Heuser (9:04:56 PM): Because you just made the comment that I didnt talk to me
Wil Heuser (9:05:00 PM): to people

Wil Heuser (9:05:21 PM): When I know I have and I always had people either be brief with me or choppy conversations.

Neda (9:08:46 PM): I just don't get why you think I would put myself out there

Neda (9:08:50 PM): like that

Neda (9:09:02 PM): Like you even said week 1

Wil Heuser (9:09:03 PM): Because Neda if you were in my situation.. I would risked it.
Wil Heuser (9:09:08 PM): wouldve
Neda (9:09:09 PM): that you

Neda (9:09:11 PM): thats

Wil Heuser (9:09:20 PM): OK, Neda.

Neda (9:09:23 PM): ok wil

Wil Heuser (9:09:28 PM): I know where I stand with you.

Neda (9:09:30 PM): i wasnt even close in the veto

Wil Heuser (9:09:51 PM): I see that.
Neda (9:10:25 PM): youre telling me
Neda (9:10:31 PM): sam and mike would have used the veto on you

Neda (9:10:35 PM): and because i said id think about it
Neda (9:10:41 PM): changed everything

Wil Heuser (9:10:47 PM): I know Mike wouldve

Now this is when I get into panic mode. So Mike is working with Wil! Zach told me earlier he thinks Mike might try and flip the vote to keep Wil this week. After my blow out with Wil, I need him out of this game! I cannot have an enemy in this house at all. Mike really wants Sarah and Luke out and he trusts Wil so I see every reason for Mike to try something. This also confirms that Mike was the vote to evict Luke during my hoh reign. So now I see why Mike was a little weird with me after.

At this point, I need to talk to Mike. I get my chance to talk to Mike and it went perfect! Finally Mike opens up to me! Turns out he is scared shitless! I guess Mike just has bad social skills? He is worried that he made enemies out of Sarah and Luke this week. I couldn’t disagree with that but I made it known that he didn’t make an enemy out of me. I am not really banking on myself winning the next Hoh even though it is important. So I promised him safety in the case he does win. I need Sarah/Luke vs Mike in this game. I’d of course be playing both sides in that rivalry. Let’s hope I don’t get caught!

I am starting to see different sides in the house forming. On one side you have Zach, Sam and Sofia. Then you have Sarah and Luke. Then you got Mike and Wil. Not sure where Brittany and Brian stand. I have felt like Brian is working with Mike so he could be there. Brittany I would see as a floater? Sofia is someone who scares me in the game. I don’t see how she didn’t get nominated and Brittany did. How was she able to work Mike like that? That’s so sketchy ass shit. Thankfully I am on her side so I don’t need to worry about her mist but I do not want to go final 3 with her.

Even though the next hoh is super important, I don’t know what I would do if I win. For my personal game I don’t think anyone is after me right now. I feel like Mike winning would be Luke/Sarah. Sarah winning would be Mike. Luke winning might be me or even Zach now. I feel like I am good with Brittany. Brian is someone I am not sure about at all but I still feel like he has his targets and I am not one of them. I would like to see him leave next but not because of my hoh. It would have to be Sofia’s hoh that Brian would leave.

As of right now, I believe Wil is getting evicted. But anything can change at this point. I really hope the house doesn’t flip on Zach and then we end up on the outs. I’d be damn if all my hard work blows up because of Wil!

Anyways, so in case you didn’t watch my video I mentioned some alias I think I figured out. Now before you get all pissy in the house calls, I swear these just popped into my mind.





I’ll leave it at that! Watch my video for more details on how I feel about my suspicion. I am trying to not think about it too much because I don't want it to affect how I feel about them (especially Zach) but I can't!

[Neda Kalantar]

Making jury tho



Was much easier making jury this time than the last. Not just because of the small cast!

[Neda Kalantar]

So Wil was evicted! When the week started, I wasn’t happy about the idea of Wil getting evicted a round before jury. After his little blow out I am now! Wil showed his true selfish colors this week. I still cannot get over the fact about him expecting me to use the veto on him. He’s such a whiney little bitch boy. Sayonara Wil! I’m sure Wil and Gina will be talking shit about me in prejury!

Going into this hoh, I feel like I don’t necessary need to win this competition like others do. It’s so strange being in this position. I am not used to having comfort in this game. My only worry was if some random person won this hoh challenge. Someone like Luke or Brian who I am not really sure they would go after.

When results were getting posted and I saw I was getting a lot correct, I started to worry. I DO NOT WANT TO WIN THIS COMPETITION! I was actually worried and stressed I would win this challenge! There are some competitions you just don’t win in this game. If I were to win this hoh then I would be forced to show my true colors in the game. I would have to get my hands dirty and that would make it much harder for me to get to the end. Sofia winning hoh was best case scenario for me. I noticed Luke has been doing well in competitions lately and that worries me. Sooner or later he will win a challenge and I will panic. Luke needs to go soon!

It was hilarious after Sofia one! Literally everyone but me, Sam and Zach were freaking out! “What is she gonna do?!” That is what everyone was asking. It was so hard to hide the fact that I knew I was safe and knew exactly what she is doing. Right after that I knew I have done something right in this game. I’m so glad I am in an alliance with Sofia! Sofia and I’s relationship is very bitchy. Basically you will catch us on the feeds talking shit about everyone in the game and not in the game. We had a long chat talking shit about Gina and JoJo even though they are out of the game. She really does bring out my evil side! At this point, I wouldn’t mind going all the way to the end with her. Her jury management is flawless!


 
Even though it is not official with Sam, I feel like me, Sam, Zach and Sofia have a solid 4 together. We all like each other. We have all won hohs and povs so far this season! We are a dominating alliance and controlling the game so far. Do I want to go final 4 with them? No freaking way! You better trust and believe I want to go with the weakest people I can bring with me that far. Maybe Brian?

Sofia made her nominations and that speech! It was breathtaking to be honest. So refreshing and bold! Like I said, I’m glad I am with Sofia! She tore Brian and Sarah to shreds. Between the 2, it’s obvious Sarah is the bigger threat competition and social wise. Voting Brian out would be just based off the fact I don’t like him. Nothing to do with game really and I cannot play petty. I do feel like me and Sarah have some sort of connection but it hasn’t gone anywhere lately. I feel like she wouldn’t nominate me or target me if she were to win, down the road though, she maybe a threat.

Zach mentions to me that Sarah, Luke, Brian and Brittany have an alliance. He didn’t provide me any receipts of this alliance so I can’t believe that is the truth. I told myself, when I decided to I would play this season. That is not to be so gullible and believe everything someone tells me. I can see how that alliance could be very true though. Brian did pick Brittany to play in the veto. Sarah has admitted her and Luke have something.



I do have my doubts about Zach still. Am I really am his number 1 over Sofia and Sam? He also mentioned wanting Brittany to last long, which does raise suspicion. Maybe they have a secret alliance? Makes me want Brittany out soon to be safe!

As of right now, if the nominations stay the same Sarah will be leaving. I’d rather Luke leave this week, I am hoping Sarah can win the veto pull herself off. Luke gets backdoored and evicted!