Post by Sofia Valentine on Oct 31, 2014 12:29:40 GMT -5
~ HAPPY HALLOWEEN ~
I can kiss ass and say how I treated everyone with respect but that's a big fat lie. I admitted this to some of you during the game and that's that I know I'm a major CUNEXTTUESDAY. I never shied away from that. I know I was a difficult person to play with. I signed up to this game to have fun, make moves, turn shit upside down and werk my way to the end. If I got evicted early or before even making the end then I could say that I had a blast playing the game and making things interesting even though I wouldn't be winning.
Every single thing I did in this game had a reason behind it. I didn't go out of my way to be an awful bitch just for the hell of it. There was one KEY reason behind it. The closer we got to the end the more appealing it was going to be to take me to the end because of how horrible I treated some of you. It's a reason why I couldn't sit next to someone like Brittany and Mike who hung from a rainbow and didn't have a drop of blood on their hands. To me I think even though I was a bitch to some of you.. at least I was SOMETHING in the social stratosphere unlike Sam. Sam says he made moves but did he do any alone? No. Every move Sam made he did with someone else or he was persuaded by another. I on the other hand went out of my way to change things.
At the beginning of the game I signed on every now and then and only did it enough to show that I had a presence but NOT a strong one. QUALITY > QUANTITY. I didn't want to be someone that sat online for long periods of time. This paid off in my eyes because Mike had made a comment later in the game how people who were on 24/7 were more likely to be in group alliances. This is what saved me with him early on. The people I had the best relationships with at the beginning were Zach, Neda and Sam. They were my three. We all worked together since the first round but it wasn't official. It was more of an "understanding" that we all liked each other and would keep each other safe. When Zach and Sam came to Neda and I about the first alliance and said they were ditching it and coming to us but made it seem that they were still going to play the field between the two alliances that's when my attitude changed. Sam and Zach would be good with Brian and Brittany and also good with us making them the safest people in the house. I saw them as my biggest threats but Zach as the bigger of the two for being far more social and better in challenges.
When I wondered if Neda was in the same predicament as me I shared my worry with her over one of Sam's HOH decisions and a day later found out that she relayed the information to Zach who then gave it to Sam. This had me under assumption that Neda wasn't worried like me and was more with the boys than me. This was when I went to Brittany and spilled everything. Brittany then became the only person I felt I could really be ME with. For those of you that think I'm a horrible human being then you can talk to Brittany and ask her. If I was genuine about who I was with anyone, it was her. But back to spilling the beans, I figured if the boys could jump alliances then I could too. If I could go to Brittany and sail Zach and Sam down the river, that would destroy the trust between their 3 and Brittany would be closer to me over them because I would have clued her in and given her knowledge in the game.
After this happened my goal was clear. I was going to go on a smear campaign to destroy Neda and Zach and get them out of the game. I was mad at Neda for being with the guys when it didn't seem smart to me at all for her (it was fucking frustrating) and that she had told my worry to Zach. My target however was Zach because he was well connected and had the power to beast competitions. I did the same things that Zach did in the game (jumping ship, telling people I wanted them to stay even when they were going) but since I called Zach out first and over exaggerated his actions the rounds before, he looked like the bad guy to the house and I made Neda look like his accomplice. I painted targets on their backs and threw them out in front of everyone to attack.
Before all of this I solidified my and Brittany working together by coming up with the plan a day before in trying to keep Mike in the house over Brian. Brian was someone I could never work with because we didn't like each other and Mike was someone I liked. It was better move for ME because I had no ties to Brian but Sam and Brittany both had ties to Brian which is why I was surprised they were willing to make the move with me. Brittany and I agreed that Mike would be a better person to have to face off against Zach and Neda so we kept him. In order to do this, I talked a long amount with Sam and told him how Zach and Neda were together, they were a F2 and that they were both undermining his HOH and making him look like the bad guy to Mike. At the same time I was encouraging Mike to tell Sam the same things and Brittany was also talking to Sam. If you cornered Sam and hammered thoughts away at him he eventually believed them. He did it all game. He was gullible and a pushover.
After Zach left it occurred to me that Neda staying might be a better decision because she was alone. I drug her name through the mud and this isolated her from the house. Nobody wanted anything to do with her. I don't know if everyone knew this but Neda and I had a private fight that lasted a good hour. But ended with her and I hashing things out. We both did petty things in the game to one another. I was photoshopping her face to look like a rat and she was photoshopping me sucking Sam's cock on a phone. We fought dirty but she and I saw the appeal in her staying. It was a better move and people would think she and I hated one another and would be against each other. We had public fights and we bad mouthed each other to everyone. Keeping her around as an option to take to the end would be open if she stayed because nobody would think we were together.
I know this is a lot already so I'll leave the rest to be asked in questions. The bottom line is when I emerged from UTR.. I came out swinging. I was reckless and fucking crazy but I changed the game and made things less predictable. I'd like to think that the moves I took and the risks I endured were a breath of fresh air to a stale situation. I PLAYED this game whether I was fake as fuck and painting others like bad guys, winning crucial competitions, being brash and outspoken, you name it. I hope all of you will hear me out and will give me a chance to tell you why I deserve to win over Sam.