Round 2 Confessionals

[Mike Dutz]

JoJo was evicted and that absolutely sucks.  She was someone that I felt close to and felt would have my back if she stayed.  Plus now, I will have a super awkward moment when I next talk to Wil because he will be upset that I voted to evict him.  We did not have an alliance and nobody filled me in on the vote. Maybe I can ignore the situation?  I don't know. I wonder what happened. I feel out of the loop. And I did log on today and nobody wanted to talk to me. I hope I am not in danger this week. Maybe being out of the loop will make me less threatening?  But also, not talking to people as often as I should be is not good.  Alliances will have been formed and I have not been offered anything. Hopefully my HoH performance will be strong enough to win me the HoH this round but I took the maximum amount of time and I am not confident in my answers. It is a very hard HoH though so maybe others will struggle. 

[Mike Dutz]

**waves to Hayley**

[Mike Dutz]

From what I am hearing, Gina and Luke may be people that could be targets this round depending on who wins HoH. I think Zach would have my back if he wins, Brittany might, and Wil even said that he would keep me safe if he wins. But I think he already knew I voted against him and I did confess that I did. So he may have changed his mind. I made sure to stress my reasons for voting him and said I really hope it wouldn't mean that we can't work together. I think it will be a messy week, so I just hope someone wins that would keep me safe. I'm only slowly taking baby steps towards forming more solid alliances and I think some people do want to work with me. I've had two good talks with Neda and while that may be only a few chats, maybe the quality of our conversations will matter over quantity. She'd be safe if I win HoH.

Safe if I win HoH...

Zach
Wil
Sam
Neda
Sofia ? status could change ?

Danger if I win HoH...

Luke

2nd nomination and replacement nominee if needed from...

Gina
Sarah
Brian

[Mike Dutz]

And I totally forgot Brittany in my list up there oops. She would have been filed under safe.

Anyway...Neda tells me I am safe. I hope that's truly the case! I know she is going to nominate Luke. Not sure who her other nomination would be.

Gina was apparently sick all weekend and I think I know who is playing as Gina now. Oops. They spoiled their alias if I'm correct. But it's cool. I could be completely wrong. I do think Gina tries to make an effort with me so I need to be more open to a working relationship there. I can only be charming so much. Eventually I will need a solid group to advance. And no one has offered me anything yet. I think Brittany likes me so that is a huge plus for me.

[keith]

Rooting for you!

[Mike Dutz]

Guess it is time for another diary room session. A bunch has happened since my last one. Sorry, about that!

The PoV went up and Neda had an option to choose someone to play. I made sure to voice my interest and told her I would not change her nominations if I won. She decided to pick me. That really proved to me that Neda and I have a good relationship. If I had asked to play and she did not pick me I would be questioning what type of relationship we have, unless she told me someone else asked her first.

I did not end up winning the veto, but Neda did!  I instantly was like, PERFECT!  She will keep the nominations the same.  A while goes by...I know she saw the results and I'm like...okay...how hard is it to post a topic saying you aren't using the veto?  You're the HoH!  You won veto.  Keep your noms the same, girl!  So I sent her a PM just saying congratulations and told her I wouldn't be online because of the Survivor premiere and BB finale but I just wanted to congratulate her personally.

In actuality, I was at work.  Do you know how hard it is for me to be changing up my style of play and make up these lies?  It is super hard.  Normally I'd just admit I am at work.  And I try to be online ALL THE TIME!  This game for the most part and this round...I've really sat back.  It's difficult for me to do this.  But it is helping me not come across as a threat, I guess.  I just worry that I am not talking to people enough.  Because even when I was done work yesterday, I was tempted to jump online and talk to the late nighters but I didn't want Survivor or BB to be spoiled for me so I didn't log on.

But today, I log on...and Luke messages me.  He says he has the votes to stay.  omg...NO.  UGH!  I ask who he has and he told me he has Zach, Brittany, Sarah, and Brian.  Hmm...this worries me.  I know Brian was seeking an alliance.  Brittany is very active and talkative and I know she is not one of the people who Wil feels close to.  Zach is very active.  Is there an alliance I am not a part of?  Did Brian find his alliance?  Luke went on and said he is patrolling for Sam and Sofia but he never sees them online.  And he said he is afraid to talk to Wil because he voted to evict him.  So I told Luke that I would keep him.  If he ends up staying then maybe he would target one of the people he is having trouble getting a hold of instead of me.

This was all while we were waiting for Neda to post veto ceremony.  For all I know, he could decide to use it.  So I was still worried a little bit.  I had a bad feeling.  Luckily, she has posted the veto ceremony now and I'm safe, as I originally thought I would be.  But man, I am so not used to these long waiting periods.  I normally play Survivor and it is like challenge loss...get right to talking vote...vote happens.  There is a lot of time in a BB round and I am not used to it!

I'm through the 2nd week though!  Further than last time!

I need an alliance though.  And I need to talk to Wil asap and tell him I think there is an alliance we need to break up.  Wil seems to be my only definite ally.  Neda maybe too, but she can't play next week now.

Sam and Sofia...where the hell are these two?

If I win HoH next round...I may need to nominate like...Brian and Sarah?  I feel like Luke would be evicted if I nominate him against someone who may be in an alliance.  With only 10 next round, I really need luck on my side or someone to win who would definitely keep me safe.  Keep playing it cool, Mike.  Keep playing it cool!  Calm, no stress, no freaking out, don't be a paranoid mess

[Mike Dutz]

Okay I won't nominate Brian if I win. I think he wants to work with me? Even though he really pisses me off sometimes. I forgot to mention how he flipped a lid about how I already did the veto challenge and the noms weren't even finalized. Like wtf. The hosts would do the same for you if you went on vacation. It was really annoying that he was jumping down my throat over it. I got over it though obviously since I forgot and just remembered now. But yah...Brian moves to safe list for now.

Would nominate...

Sarah
Luke

Most likely. I want to win HoH so bad! Ugh. Wil was missing all day today so I did not get to talk to him at all. Bummer. I will just continue to be a sneaky ninja and not badmouth anyone and hope that I remain safe. I don't think Neda would have told Luke that I would insta-nominated him if I had won HoH. That was the one slip-up I made this past round. Only negative thing.

So Luke is staying. This is just wow to me. I was not about to campaign to keep Gina though. But it would have been nice to see Sam or Sofia on. Also, I am wary of Brian even though I won't nominate him and I do think he would keep me safe. I don't want to be naive so there is always the chance he could be attempting to spy on me for Luke and them. He seemed to say a few things like it would be stupid for him to go against the house. Maybe trying to get me to say yeah I don't want to either etc. I was not going to fall into any traps. I'm being careful about what I say. New man right here, y'all.